Day 334 - A turbulent homecoming

The past two weeks back in Stockholm have been a painful but personally ground-breaking deep dive into the world of energies.

Grey skies, rain is pouring down outside the window. It’s one of those cold autumn days where you just want to stay in bed all day.

It’s now been two weeks since I came back to Sweden to root again, and it has been an unexpectedly turbulent homecoming.

When I left last fall, I left an old life, an expired 6-7 year long cycle of identity, context, mindset, relationships and meaning-making. I knew when I left that there was something new wanting to emerge and unfold, and I think I am now starting to see what that is.

What I’ve noticed upon coming back home, is that it was easier to stay disconnected to that old “paradigm” of myself and my life when I was on the road traveling or living in other places. These first two weeks back have been challenging because I’ve felt energies from that previous cycle more strongly again.

I’ve lately on this journey come to comprehend, see and experience more fully the world of energies, and all the things many people can feel or sense but not see. I saw a meme recently on instagram saying something along the lines that we have no problem believing in wi-fi, but we resist to believe in any other form of invisible frequency or connection.

In my case, I can now more fully sense and feel how some of the energies of my previous life here still lives on inside of me and how they have become more present in me here, perhaps enforced by me coming back to the physical place in which they were created. Challenging me in various ways, almost like they are trying to pull me back. Testing me if I really am ready for this upgrade and new cycle.

Similarly, I believe all things we experience, all versions of ourselves, all connections we make, live inside of us in a similar way. We’re connected to them in an energetic way. I think of it as a field. A field that exists beyond our three dimensional space, and beyond time.

Somehow this field still feels linked to our three dimensional world, like e.g. how I felt my connection to the energies of my previous cycle strengthen when I came back to Stockholm.

It is also said that some physical places on earth have an energetic charge, sometimes referred to as “energy vortexes” because the connection to this “field” is for some reason perceived as stronger there. I personally also believe and have experienced that humans coming together in groups can create something similar.

The first piece of science that “won me over” to starting to see and believe in all of this many years ago was the experiment where a photon particle was split in two, sent for miles in two different directions in a vacuum tube, the scientists made one of them spin and discovered that the other one started spinning in the opposite direction exactly at the same time, although miles apart, without any delay - proving that there is an inherit connection beyond the three dimensional space.

The energetic field I am referring to above, some people have decided to call “the Akashic records” or “the Akashic mind”. It can also be described as the universal mind, in which all events in all of existence, are accessible, and connected.

If the notions of “beyond time” or the “illusion of time” confuse you as much as they do me, I just found this mind-blowing scientific explanation to how our experience of time is just a perception. Based on Einstein’s theory of relativity and concept of spacetime.

To ease my own mind, it helps me to compare it to how humanity once couldn’t grasp that the earth was anything else but flat, or later how earth was believed to be the center of the universe. Similarly, I think we one day in the far future will see humanity’s perspective today on time and energy in a similar way.

Wow, this letter is getting real deeply philosophical and spiritual.

I guess that’s what’s longing to come through.

Anyway.

I’ve recently come across several humans with the ability to access and alter this field, and it’s been outer-wordly experiences. I am myself at a stage where I am open-mindedly observing and witnessing. Sensing and feeling.

An example that is easy for me to believe from own experience, is when two people fall deeply in love and spend a lot of time together, sharing strong experiences and grow together. There is a strong, deep bond created. Their energies merge and grow together in several ways. When those two people decide to separate, their physical bodies, minds and perhaps even hearts can be separate or even have moved on, but there is still some form of deeper connection alive, energetically. If we are to use the word “soul”, one could say that even though the physical humans have separated and moved on, their souls might not have.

I believe this because it’s my own personal experience.

And the same goes with any person or form of life we interact or connect with. There is a bond created that lives on between us energetically, in various degree of strength.

Okay, I think that’ll have to do for now.

I’d love to share more about what’s going on for me in this three dimensional life, the clarity I have received of my path ahead and the work I am here to do and have started doing, in a later letter.

Stay open, stay curious. Life is much bigger than what we know.

Love & light your way,

Philip